Tired

Ya know when there's that one person who says, "You'll always be in my life. We'll always be friends" Then that same person decides to screw you over because it's what's  "good" for them. They can ignore you most of the days and one day send you a message saying "they still appreciate you and you'll always be someone special to them" Well it's complete bullshit. I dont cuss so when you hear me utter those words, I'm not mad, I'm livid. I'm tired of being the the person people want to screw over and leave behind. I really hope when the day comes and you're down and you need my help, I remember this day. I plan to laugh in your face. I plan not to be the better person and you'll be treated that same way you treated me. I dont care about your life. I dont care about your friendship. I will always  be a nice person but you'll never know it because I'm done with you. Being nice to you will never even be in my thought process. I'm done. 


It showed that I cared when I tried multiple times to find out what the deal is. I ask and you say nothing. I ask and you say nothing. I ask and you say nothing. What the F do you expect me to think. I'm a smart person (let's face it) so I can figure out when something's not right. All I can account for is the fact that I'm always trying to be a good friend. I'm always wondering what I can do better to make some else happy. Why even bother? Everyone always end up caring mostly about themselves in the end anyway. I no longer care. If that means that I'll end up alone because all the trust that I've ever held has been broken by someone who I was fooled into putting my faith in, "So Be it!!" I trust no one. You can feel guilty, care, not care, be sad or whatever  else sorry ass excuse you have for feeling sorry for yourself. I dont care and I never will again.