Current mood: anxious
It has been a long time since many people have seen me. For the past 4 months, I've been pretty much in the house. I didn't go out much and when i did it was to drive people around or take someone somewhere. I've been dealing with something that has been building up for a long time. A couple days ago i was diagnosed with Major Depression and Panic Disorder. They both are two serious Mental Disorders that have invaded my life. 2007 and 2008 were really hard years for me so now in 2009, I want to make a difference. Everyone pretty much knows what Depression is, but I'll explain Panic Disorder.
Panic Disorder is a disorder in which inappropriate, intense apprehension and physical symptoms of fear occur so frequently as to produce significant impairment. It affects everyday life. You feel like you're having a heart attack and you can't breathe. It's really scary.
Panic Disorder and Depression have kept me to myself. It's something i was ashamed of because i thought people would think i'm crazy or weird, but now i dont really care what people think about me. I want to get better for myself so I can get back on the right track. My life is at a different place than i thought it would be. With Counseling and Medication, I plan to turn things around and make 2009 a great year!! Hopefully I'll have the support of my family and close friends, but even if I dont I'll still get better and like Crystal says, 'It's a new year and a new me' so I'm gonna make the best of it.
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