I'm back!

Current mood: warm

Well guys...I'm back. I had so much fun in Delaware. I got a really amazing job. I was so happy to meet my new baby cousin Marcel.He was such a cutie. I got to see all my family up there. I got a chance to change everything about me that i wanted. I went away to try and find myself and the whole time i was away I realized, I didnt need to move away to find out who Tierra is. So, i'm back!! After i get secure here, I do plan to go visit my new friends in DE though. I miss them already. My nephews were so happy to see me. I havent had a chance to go around and see all my friends, but y'all know i'm coming. I'm looking forward to seeing everybody. I will update y'all on my adventure back to SC, but until then...

Currently watching: What Happens in Vegas (Widescreen Edition) Release date: 2008-08-26

2 weeks

Current mood: accomplished

It has officially been two weeks since i left SC. I think i'm handling myself well. There are good hours and there are bad hours. I knew i would miss my nephews, but i didnt think it would affect me this much. Sometimes i just lie down and think about what they're doing or what new things they're saying and how i'm missing everything. It's hard when you've been there from the beginning, watching them grow from babies to lil boys. They always knew how to cheer me up. Now when i talk to them on the phone, they ask me when i'm coming back (well the two oldest do) and why i'm not there. The two smallest don't know what's going on but i still talk to them anyway. I always tell them i love them and i'll visit soon. Plus, they know i'm gonna spoil them rotten when i get a job. That's the first thing Jacobe asks, " Cody, did you get a job yet?" Lol (that's my babii)

The good news is i may have a job, which i'm so happy about. It gives me something to do and a chance to meet new people. I go for my second interview in about 14 hrs so i hope it goes well. I've been filling out applications and sending in resumes left and right, but with this job i had connections so we'll see. I think having a job will make me spend less time dwelling on my nephews every second and just worrying about me (which is what i came here for). I'm learning my way around a little bit. I'm walking downtown up these two really leg-hurtin hills. I hate those hills but oh well they get me where i'm going. Most times i stay in the house or go to my Aunt Trancey house, but i'm trying to get out more. It's a struggle but i'm taking it one hour at a time.

I miss and love everyone. Wish me well and i'll wish you well also (even if you dont wish me well lol). I got so much love for ya.

Currently reading: Where Are You Now?: A Novel By Mary Higgins Clark

Bye, Bye

Current mood: calm

Well....the time has arrived. In 4 days, i'm gone. I already miss everyone lol. The last few days i've been thinking back on my time here in Camden and Columbia and just crying cuz i'll miss everything. It's okay though, I'll be back to visit for the first time in Feb. for my grandparents anniversary party. Anyways, i just wanted to say to everyone who i wont get to see...Bye Bye. I love you much

Currently watching: LEGEND OF ZORRO Release date: 2006-01-31

Time has flown

Current mood: confused I can't believe how fast August 8th is approaching. I'm so excited about starting a new life and at the same time I'm extremely depressed. All i can think about is who i'm leaving behind. There's my mom, my sister, my brother, my best friend, and (most importantly) my nephews. At the same time, I'm excited about who i'll be around more often. I'll be around two of my aunts, an uncle, 4 of my first cousins (who are all my babies) and my new lil cousin who i havent seen. They all said they will show me around and help out so hopefully everything will be fine. It doesnt stop my tears though...

Why is it??

Current mood: strong

Why is it, people feel the need to pretend to be 'your' friend? Is it that important for them to have tons of friends that they have to start pretending just to make themselves feel better. It's fake!! I cant stand to be around people who are fake or two faced. It's a waste of energy. I use to tolerate it all the time (believe me) but now here's what i say....'If you cant be friends with me to my face and behind my back, then fuck you!!' I mean shit i got plenty of people that i can hang with all day, every day so i aint gonna waste no tears worrying about ya.

Sorry folks i just had to get that off my chest. If you dont know what i'm talking about, then i'm not talking to you. Although if you're wondering if it's you i'm talking about then it prolly is you...lol. It dont take much to be my friend cuz i love everybody but dont cross me or you'll meet a Tierra you dont wanna know.

Currently playing: Tomb Raider Anniversary (Wii Edition) Release date: 2007-11-13

My B-day!!

Current mood: happy

Can you believe it? I'm 23!! Time has flown by. Once i turned 20, the years started rolling by. I'm getting old..lol, but that's okay because along with age comes the wisdom (for some people). Thank you to everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday, i really appreciate it. My day went well and hopefully i'll have many more b-days to come...

Currently playing: Crazy Taxi: Fare Wars Release date: 2007-08-07

Shy???

Current mood: peaceful

I have never been the type to go up to a stranger and say hi. I've always been the person to say hi after i'm spoken to, and it's never hi (enter conversation here). It has always been hi (walk away quickly). I've been shy as long as i can remember. When i was in first grade, i rarely talked in school so they thought i was slow. We had two reading groups, the lower reading group and the higher reading group. I dont remember how they picked who was in what group but somehow i was in the lower reading group. We had these skimpy little books. Most people in my group couldnt read. I, on the other hand, could read very well. I guess my teacher didnt know that. I taught everyone in my group how to read. My teacher saw that, they tested me and they found out i could read better than everyone in my class. I know, long story but that's just one exapmple of how my shyness held me back. I've always been really scared to talk to people and let them know who Tierra really is. I think i'll take a little time and tell y'all who Tierra is....

At home, around my family, I'm crazy. lol. I love to laugh and joke around. I'm loud and energetic. When i get together with my brother, we're constantly making people laugh. Sometimes, i'm quiet and withdrawn, but what do you expect from a Gemini? When i'm like that, i listen to my music, i read a book, or i just watch tv. I can also be very flirtacious and giddy. That's fun for me. At times, i like to play video games. I have a PsP with about 5 games. When i'm bored, that's what i do. I hate to be bored so i always try to find something to do. I'm the mother type so i'm always mothering my nephews. I change them, i feed them, i play with them, etc. I love to watch new movies especially the scary ones. Unfortunately, there havent been too many really scary movies out lately. That's a little bit about me. I'm not the shy awkward girl some people think i am, there's more to me. You just gotta get it outta me.

What about the other two?

So...I said some stuff about Jacobe and some stuff about Kalen, but what about the two in the middle? Donovan (Donnie) and Zaire (Zae) are the little devils. They are a mess. Those little boys are so adorable.

Donovan is the king of stubborn people. If that kid doesnt want to do something, he wont do it. He's also the smartest out of the bunch. Donnie asks some really intelligent questions for a three year old. I love that about him. It's funny to hear him talk because right now he talks with a lisp. Cobe and Donnie play well together sometimes. Other times, Donnie will get on Cobe's nerves so much Jacobe will hit him with all he has. Then comes the screaming. Donovan has a strong pair of lungs....that kid will be a singer oneday. Along with him, will be his little brother Zaire.

Zaire is two years old. He's the cuddler of the group. It's not wise to get on Zae's bad side because he too has a strong set of lungs. Zaire loves to smile. He also has a fascination with his baby brother's head. He'll rub it, sit on it, smush, etc. Kalen stays away as much as possible. Zae is Jacobe's baby. Cobe's always trying to pick him up and treat him like a baby (which he kinda still is). Zaire will be content with sucking his binky, playing with his ear, and sitting in my lap. He's such a cute little kid. He's just starting to talk where people can understand him and some of the stuff he says are not always what you expect out of a 2yr old...lol.

Those are my babies. My two little devils who are always getting into something. There are times when all four of them try to sit on my lap at the same time...impossible. I try to divide my time evenly with them. Donovan and Zaire will always have a special place in my heart just like their brothers.

Currently watching: One Missed Call Release date: 2008-04-22

They say you shouldn't have favorites...

Current mood: relaxed

As you all know, I love my nephews very much. They say you're not suppose to have favorites, but i do. Jacobe, my oldest nephew, has always been my favorite nephew. From the first time i held him up until now, Jacobe and I have had a special connection. He can't stay away from me and i can't stay away from him for too long. I believe leaving Jacobe will be the hardest part about leaving in August. He's such a cute 5 yr old kid. He's always asking me questions and he knows when he's getting on my nerves because he'll ask, 'are you busy?' I'll say yeah and he'll stop with the questions for a while. He was born when i was 17 yrs old and while i held him for the first time in the hospital room, I told him I would always be there for him. I plan to keep that promise. Even though i'm 8 hrs away, all that kid has to do is call me and say, 'Auntie i need you,' and i'm there. Jacobe knows how special he is to me and hopefully I'll always have a special place in his heart too.

Currently playing: Grand Theft Auto Liberty City Stories Release date: 2006-06-15

Kalen

Current mood: pleased

There's this little 9 month old baby named Kalen. He's my light right now. He's the cutest and most loveable baby i know. I have the pleasure of taking care of him right now. It makes me so happy because this little boy is full of life. He loves to get into everything. He's really smart. He likes to cuddle and he likes to crawl even though he knows how to walk. He's my youngest nephew and i love him dearly.

Bored

Current mood: bored

I can't believe how bored i am right now. It's a friday night and i'm in the bed watching 'stepford wives.' This is definitely one of the things i'm changing when i get to Delaware. I want to do something and Camden is filled with nothing. Don't get me wrong, it is a nice place to go to relax, but that's all. I don't have to worry about that too much longer...

Moving Away

Current mood: blissful

As my title says, I'm moving from South Carolina to Delaware in August. I've thought long and hard about this decision. Anyone that knows me, knows that i'm extremely attached to my 4 nephews. I'd have to say, that's what made my decision so hard, but i talked to the oldest one (he's 5) and we both came to the conclusion that we'll be okay. He's so cute, he said "It's okay Cody I can come see you when i dont have school." I've been with all 4 of those boys since they were born, but right now i need to think about myself. So, an event that i use to be sad about has now become something exciting. I am going to seperate from my nephews and the family and friends i've been around basically my whole life, and i'm going somewhere where i do have some family but not any friends to create a new life. When i get there, I plan to break out of my shyness once and for all and go all out to live my life to the fullest. Can i do it......? Hell yeah!!